I want to let this sadness roll right over me...
until the tears I'm crying cleanse and set me free .
My thoughts they hold me captive in my doubt and in my fear.
I push away the ones I love when I wish to pull them near.
Puddles fill my heart from all the silent tears I've cried;
over loved ones that are gone and friendships that have died.
I want to move on and brush these cobwebs from my mind.
I see the world move forward - yet I am left behind.
This darkness overwhelms my soul - I feel like I can't breathe.
It seems like every door is locked - like I can never leave.
This prison is one I built myself - yet I can't find the key;
the tool, the missing piece that will set me free from - me....
About Me
- Julie
- I am first, and foremost, the wife to the greatest guy and mother to the 3 greatest kids. I am a part-time maternal child nurse by night. My life has recently been redefined by my parents coming to live with me, and the subsequent loss of my mom. I may not always be eloquent, but writing is therapy for me - a way to cleanse my soul. So if you chose to enter the ramblings of my heart, my brain, my life - I welcome you.
Julie, I can relate to your dark time. I'm in a darkness of my own this year and feel a kindred connection knowing we're feeling some of the same things. I obviously don't have an answer, but will pray for you and ask that you pray for me too. It's amazing what twists and turns we take and are taken through in this life. I hope we make it through them better women because of it all. Grieving with you, Kiersten
ReplyDeleteBeautiful written, Julie and though I feel like the darkness is beginning to lift for me a bit (maybe?), I do understand. I'm there, searching with you.
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