Reflections on a Summer Day...

It has been quite a while since I have written anything. Life has settled into a quiet chaos - and I am feeling more at peace with my life.

I spent last week at summer Church camp with Brenna - both of our first times to go. This week it has just been her and I while the rest of the family is at Church camp. I have been filled with a sense of how good life is.

As we played with friends in our pool - I was filled with a gratitude for this life I have been given. The priveledge it is to be my kids mom, and Richard's wife. A welcome relief that I could be off work this week and that Richard could volunteer his time (and take a week's vacation from work) to serve the kids at camp. I know that I have been entrusted with much in my life - and thus I need to be a good steward of all these blessings. In the simplicity of just floating in my pool - I am grateful that I have this home, this family, this crazy life to call my own.

My dad has not been feeling well - quite often dizzy and short of breath. I spent the morning at the dr. with him - to find out he needs a pacemaker for an abnormal heart rhythm - and pauses in his heart rate/rhythm lasting nearly 3 seconds. At times I can feel so overwhelmed with my dad living here - and then I am reminded how short and fragile life is - and to relish this time - to embrace what I have been given.

There are still hard days, there are still sad moments - sometimes I just don't know when they will come - but they are coming less often.

Lying here tonight - with Brenna tucked in tightly next to me - anxiously awaiting the rest of my family returning tomorrow- I am thankful and at peace.